Have you counted your blessings ???

It’s already 22 days into the month of December 2009 , 52nd week into the year and we are fast approaching into a new decade of 2010 ………………………how fast time has passes us by since the last ten years ( or so ) and reminding me too that I ain’t getting any younger . This got me thinking as I look back at how many of my peer’s and colleagues who are younger than me have tied the knot or who have given birth in this year alone . Me on the other hand , for the first time ever in my life , being in a relationship which barely lasted 3 months and now thinking that she has fallen in love again in less than two months after her first break up !!! Does this get any depressing further ? Oh yes it does !!! And it’s a long distance relationship !

Besides all of these , I’ve even helped some people along the way this year and some of the deed of kindness got backfired right at my face and I was just wondering , should I continue helping others ? In this situation , I seem to be in a confused state of mind because it’s pretty hard to decide as to how other people judge us . Let me see ; just to compile the many good and bad events that has happen thus far and please allow me to state a brief remark at the end of it all in order to analyse as to how all these made me feel – whether has these shape me to be a better person or broke me into pieces and become a bitter person . So – here it goes ;

1) Mum feel ill and put all of us into a state of shocked !
2) A lunatic / brainless human being lashed out language full of vulgarity and profanity at me !
3) I helped a friend and it got backfired !
4) Fell in love for the very first time and what a disastrous experience it was ! 5) My expenses have burst it’s budget way more than what was planned earlier in the year and now I’m broke !
6) My choir mistress is a real bitch (* I just could not helped it with the language – sorry bout that ! )
7) Justice never prevails anywhere – even in church !
8) The ones closest to you are the ones who has hurt you the most !
9) I’ve failed to control my temper on many occasions this year alone – how embarrassing !
10) I seem to have become a bitter person rather than a better person !

Memorable events ………hmmmmmm………….

1) Got a measly increment ( ok ! ok ! – it’s better than none at all ! )
2) Experience my very first kiss ( finally ! applaud ! applaud ! )
3) I have a wonderful boss ! Thank God for that !
4) Sufficient annual leave as it came in very handy when mum fell ill .
5) Travelling all alone to India .
6) Meeting many wonderful people this year alone !
7) Receiving good news about a free air ticket to a long destination trip scheduled next year .
8) Good friends tying the knot and having babies ! Allelluia !
9) Sister back home for good – now it’s your turn to tie the knot – so don’t wait any longer !
10) Staying in touch with dear and caring friends who keeps ‘ cheering me and pushing me on when life seems to be lifeless !

Well – all seems to be on the balancing side of the scale but yet I’m not satisfied with it ! I sense that something is just not right with this . Anywhere – whether these are good times or bad , I’m truly blessed to be alive , experiencing , embracing and encountering situations like this . I just pray that 2010 brings in more happiness , major life changing experiences , prosperity , blessings both spiritual and material and of course continuous blogging from bloggerland by yours truly :) !