I am just so tired..................

All the things which were mapped in my mind in December / January 2012 had been just an illusion, nothing concrete. Lesson learned is not to be greedy

because the grass in never greener on the other side because I was not

there to see it, so how will I know? I should have checked things out,

there are a set of questions to ask before making that big decision of

moving on.

But of course I need to see the big picture first, means to move from

point A to point B, what are the challenges am I going to face,moving

from point A to point B?

What are the mental, emotions and physical stress will I face? Who are

the people going to support me when I am mentally, emotionally and

physically stressed? Is it worth fighting for what I believe? At the end

of the day, will I be happy and get the end result which I had pictured?

In the course of fighting for the things I believed, am I gaining trust

and support or will I lose that relationship with my family/friends?How

would I motivate myself when I find myself all alone and people do not

take me seriously anymore? Or at the end of the day, I am just hurting

myself for useless things, lies that people plant in me, so that they

can use me for their own selfish pursue leaving me broken because of the

false picture/impression which  they painted in my mind??? It has always

been lots of false hopes and empty promises.